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Struggling to Create a New LifeJust move on and do it better! 10/29/2009 Love Quotes 10"Love enables you to put your deepest feelings and fears in the palm of your partner's hand, knowing they will be handled with care." Carl S. Avery "You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, she is beautiful because you love her". Anonymous "Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none" William Shakespeare in All's Well That Ends Well, Act i, Sc.1 "Woman was created from the rib of man: Not from his head to be thought of only, nor from his hand to be owned, nor from his foot to be beneath, but from under his arm to be protected, from his side to be equal, and from his heart to be loved..".Author "Listening is an attitude of the heart, a genuine desire to be with another that both attracts and heals." J. Isham "To love someone is to see a miracle invisible to others." Francois Mauriac "Love is being stupid together." "Love means never having to say you're sorry." Love Story, 1970 10/15/2009 阳光 雨
总感觉每一滴雨，都是人们跨越时间和空间的思念。每一滴落到地面都会摔个粉碎，可是然后又会周而复始，变成云；思念太沉的时候，再变成雨落下来……那么多的雨点，有多少能落在我的脸上，被我感应到？ 天开始很凉了，5~10度基本上是。老板最近奇怪地开始各种找我干活，于是经常七点多天没怎么亮就去办公室，晚上6点多七点多天很黑的时候才回家。本来就没什么天放晴的时候，这样一来更是长期看不见阳光，长期面对着电脑，思过……效率比较低下，事情不着急的时候就常常犯困。前天听说，人长期不晒太阳会导致情绪低落，于是吃过午饭出去走了走。 “不管实际效果怎么样，还是有点安慰作用的，觉得为情绪做了点事情~就会好一些”。 密歇根湖的水不知道为什么变成蓝绿色，还有一带一带的黑，被冷风吹得很不好看。湖边的石头巍然不动，上面各种语言写着的可爱的誓言，经受着阳光风雨、湖水以及时光的雕琢。天并不很晴朗，有厚厚的云掩盖着太阳的光，云的边缘被照得很耀眼，阻止我改善心情；低一些薄的云像飘渺的轻纱，像水中溶开的牛奶，被很冷很冷的风吹得像是要冻僵了，缓缓地缓缓地飘浮在空中，像是伸手就可以触摸到。云层遮盖不住的地方，就是那清新得很可爱的蓝，很高，很遥远……
球场草坪上，成群的大雁一起嘻戏，然后编队飞走；不同主人的两条很好看的狗也草地上很开心地互相缠斗着玩。很多树叶开始从树顶上开始变红，像特意只染红几缕头发的时尚小伙儿…… 就算是有时晚上在昏暗的灯光和阴凉的小雨中走回家，也是常常感觉所处地方的美好。只是，总感觉这许多的美好与自己没有多大关系，就反而更加落寞起来…… 没有阳光就多打球吧。其实，大概只是需要一个宣泄的出口…… 10/14/2009 Love Quotes 9"The love of my life came not as love unto others is cast; for mine was a secret wound - but the wound grew a pearl, at last." Edith Thomas "Love reminds you that nothing else matter." Amy Bushell "Love is the most abiding power of the world". Martin Luther King "For every lover is, in his head, a madman and in his heart a minstrel" Neil Gaiman "I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightfowardingly, without complexeties or pride. So I love you because i know no other way than this..." Pablo Neruda "We are shaped and fashioned by what we love." Johann Wolfgang von Goethe "The only abnormality is the incapacity to love". Anais Nin "If the only place where I could see you was in my dreams, I'd sleep forever." "Love lives on hope, and dies when hope is dead; It is a flame which sinks for lack of fuel". Pierre Corneille 10/5/2009 从不间断地忙+回国安排
本来今年没打算回家的，幸好上次得的奖学金有一部分是科研经费，老板问我要不要回国开个学术会议……于是后来定了12月去武汉开会。我定行程的时候，他还让我在家里多呆些时间……真是无限NICE……行程告诉大家，有时间的话一起聚一下：）
灌水完毕，干活睡觉，睡觉干活。 10/4/2009 Love Quotes 8
"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love". Tom Robbins in "Still Life With Woodpecker" "No act of love is ever wasted". Geneen Roth "And remember, my sentimental friend, that a heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others". Professor Marvel in ['Wizard of Oz' and also by 'Karl Marx' in 1844] "True love is friendship caught on fire."French Proverb "No matter how hard things seem, True love will aide you through it." "Love is when you look into someone's eyes and go all the way inside, to their soul and you both know... instantly."Angela Chase "My So Called Life" "The love we give away is the only love we keep". Elbert Hubbard "I love you. It's not a weight you must carry around. I love you. It's not a box that holds you in. I love you. It's not a standard you have to bear. I love you. It's not a sacrifice I make. I love you. It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I love you. It's not an expectation of perfection. I love you. It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's). I love you. It's not to make you change. I love you. It's not even to make you love me. I love you. It's as pure and simple as that." Anonymous "Love is a gift of one's innermost soul to another so both can be whole." Tea Rose 9/22/2009 Love Quotes 7
"How do you know it's love? I don't know, but it lasts forever." Van Halen "Love does not dominate; it cultivates".Goethe "True love is not measured in hugs and kisses, but in struggles and fears, and those who can work though those...they possess true love". Adam Murphy "May no gift be too small to give, nor too simple to receive, which is wrapped in thoughtfulness and tied with love."L.O. Baird "Love is the only way to grasp another human being in the innermost core of his personality". Victor Frankl "The laws of love are written in the heart of every human being by the hand of God". Anonymous 9/14/2009 最近比较爱折腾
今天，T61笔记本的键盘太脏了有几个键用着不太灵，于是一个个拆了下来清洗，搞半天，结果装上的时候发现自己弄坏了6个键……打电话给联想，没想到他们没管我怎么弄坏的，就说，还在三年保修期内，给我寄个新的让我自己换……开心！ 前些天把网球拍的线打断了，重新买了个专业些的，也买了线给旧拍子换，不过好像换个线人工费就要15……不是很划算，因为旧拍子我已经不是很喜欢了，拍面太大，重量太轻。弄好了当个备用的吧。买之前好好研究了各种拍子的参数，发现打了这么久了，也是时候换个新的咯…… 还有就是，如果顺利的话，12月中旬可能回国，去武汉开个会，顺路回趟家 ：） Love Quotes 6
"The human heart, at whatever age, opens to the heart that opens in return."Maria Edgeworth "Love is like a river, always changing, but always finding you again somewhere down the road." Kelly Elaine "True love doesn't need words, true love can speak for itself". Jodie Lake "Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along." Maulana Jalalu'ddin Rumi"True love is rare, so when you find it don't let it go just because of a barrier you can't cross". Ray H Wall "To love another person is to see the face of God". Les Miserables the Musical "Love is the immortal flow of energy that nourishes, extends and preserves. Its eternal goal is life." Smiley Blanton 8/27/2009 两个好消息
所以虽然昨天半夜到今天一整天一直下着雨，走在路上都觉得冷了，但是心情是好啊。打电话通知了妈妈，妈妈很开心：） 8/20/2009 [DIY] PC assembled, working great!After reading these articles, changed the quad-core CPU to an AMD Athlon Dual-Core 2.9G. We’re still not ready for Quad-core computers, especially the software. Everything is working great, except… the ASUS wireless PCI adapter WL-138g… low signal and not working well under Win Vista (32 bit). Trying to get a Vista x64 and see if that works. Might have to spend another 10 bucks on a wireless adapter. Didn’t expect this to be the trouble maker… The entire system would be boosted if a good graphic card is installed. Waiting for Starcraft II… 8/11/2009 [DIY] Building my own PC##Mother board ##video card (will upgrade this if I’d ever play the coming Starcraft II, lol) ##CPU (AMD Phenom Quad-Core 1.8G) ##SDRAM (2GB X 2) ## hard drive (750G) ##PSU ##PC case, wireless… All together /w shipping+tax etc. for about $350. May not be a good idea to do this in the States. Any suggestions? ## Had a 19’’ LCD. 7/23/2009 Love Quotes 5
"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more". Erica Jong in How to Save Your Own Life (1977) "Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. . . . When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence". Edmond de Goncourt (1822-96) and Jules de Goncourt (1830-70) "Pure love and suspicion cannot dwell together: at the door where the latter enters, the former makes its exit."Alexandre Dumas "Love, like a river, will cut a new path Whenever it meets an obstacle." Crystal Middlemas "Real love is a pilgrimage. It happens when there is no strategy, but it is very rare because most people are strategists". Anita Brookner "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet". Plato "The hottest love has the coldest end."Socrates "There is no greater wonder than the way the face and character of a woman fit so perfectly in a man's mind, and stay there, and he could never tell you why. It just seems it was the thing he most wanted." Robert Louis Stevenson "Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it."Swedish proverb 超赞日食视频本来以为全食和偏食不会有什么大的差别，不过看了一下直播才知道差别这么大。前天看日食的视频直播，差点儿被上海东方卫视那帮猪头恶心死。真正好看的日食现象基本都没看着，就是在那里瞎激动。下面这段纪录说“没文化真可怕”，可是这帮人根本是缺少最基本的常识……
今天在YOUTUBE上碰巧看到一段日本人在太平洋上拍的，超赞，共享一下： 谁有更好看的共享一下吧？呵呵 7/15/2009 飘雪韩雪 7/13/2009 “没追求”被当头劈了一棒
嗯，写着写着突然想明白了，在有些事情上，自己还没有“无所谓”和“没追求”的资本。好像突然又想明白了以前自以为理解了的那些经典里，新的一些要义，有时间了再仔细研读研读。也似乎想明白了一些自己毕业前必须完成的东西。好吧，就这样。 7/12/2009 你要的不是我（林俊杰）词：林怡凤 曲：林俊杰 7/6/2009 Evanston的初夏
首先是上上周末去了Six-Flags，美国一个很大的游乐场。上午在water park玩，所以回来后发现自己晒得通红。组里一起去的都晒得黑乎乎的，并且都脱了一层皮。这家Six-Flags号称有世界上最高的过山车。在下面看就感觉好恐怖。自己属于对这些东西反应比较巨大的，玩了一会儿就感觉恶心想吐。犹豫了很久也没敢上最高的那个。休息了很久后还是试了一个不那么恐怖的过山车……有些事情，这辈子总得试一下，不然可能永远不知道什么感觉的。组里一个访问教授的女儿，7岁，反而是很勇敢，试了很多东西，实在是初生牛犊不怕虎。当天晚上睡觉的时候还是一闭眼就天旋地转的，到很晚才能睡着。 前天是美国国庆节，晚上镇里放起了焰火。时间是比较长，半小时左右，看得脖子都酸。不过可能还是经济不太好吧，总感觉还是小气了些，没有那么壮观。自己比较喜欢那种淡蓝色的，在夜空里，虽然不是最显眼，但是却显得那么的特别，带点儿忧郁。 近日的天气非常舒适，温度适中，偶尔小雨，大部分时间阳光很美。小镇环境也很好，郁郁葱葱的很多树，鲜绿的草坪，微风习习的湖边和沙滩。加上最近比较空闲，于是重新开始和一群中国学生踢球，再偶尔打打网球，跑跑步。每天下午太阳下山的时候喜欢一个人坐在大湖边上的大石上，看着海天一色，看着满天飞的海鸥，和湖里的点点帆船。虽然明白自己离这么轻松惬意的生活还非常遥远，还有很多的事情要去完成。但是，总会有那么一天…… 地球的另一边，妹妹前天毕业了。妈妈和几个亲戚一起过去深圳玩了几天。每周都要和老妈讲几个小时电话，生活琐事无所不聊。老妈的状况也慢慢好起来，我看着也就放心许多，也答应我今后我多外出走走散散心。妹妹的话，有份小工作先做着，再自己看看以后怎么办。虽然说并没有要求妹妹要怎么怎么样，但是和她说起来的时候，还总是有些语气很强硬，耐心不足。经常和朋友聊起来，大家都觉得我们这些做哥哥姐姐的，对只比我们小一两岁的弟弟妹妹们的想法都很不理解。不知是社会变化太快，还是做哥哥姐姐的总是不太一样。 没有为未来担心什么，也没有什么现实的不满意。但是，就像同组的另一个访问教授说我的，年纪轻轻的就变得这么没有激情……人，是不是安定的时候，就会少了拼搏的心？没有野心是不是就不会进步？嗯，好像是应该寻找一下，除了游戏和运动之外的，那么一种激情。 夏天，要来了。 6/27/2009 Love Quotes 4
"With true love come no doubts, no jealousy, and no worries." "Love is like heaven, but it can hurt like hell." "It isn't possible to love and part...You can transmute love, ignore it, muddle it, but you can never pull it out of you... Love is eternal." E M Forester "Love is like a knife, it can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that will last a lifetime." "Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble and attempts what is above its strength." Thomas A Kempis "You know you are in love When you see the world in her eyes, And her eyes everywhere in the world." David Levesque "True understanding is deeper in meaning than mere words, and is important for its result, not petty rhetoric. Those who can verbalize their happiness have little happiness to speak of. My love has grown so much that I can't tell even half of it in words". Unknown (paraphrasing William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet) "Love, The key that unlocks the bars of impossibility." "What the heart gives away is never gone ... It is kept in the hearts of others."Robin St. John "True love is your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another". Owen Wilson in Wedding Crashers "He that shuts love out, in turn shall be Shut out from love, and on her threshold lie, Howling in outer darkness." Alfred, Lord Tennyson "We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person" W. Somerset Maugham "Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart." Washington Irwing 6/21/2009 天气好转老板出差前几天，对我的工作赞不绝口。其实也不是什么大的东西，就是自己展示成果的方式比较特别，总能做些很讨人喜欢的图啊之类的。可能还真有些像当年Becky说我的一样，做个科学领域的艺术家。确实有时候这些小技巧比真正的研究能力还重要。也许因为学术界确实比较枯燥，大家都需要创造些东西来娱乐一下。能把结果展示得非常漂亮，超出一般人的想象，也就给人眼前一亮的感觉，自然讨人欢喜。像老板这样天天钻在各种公式和理论里面的人，一旦看到别人能把枯燥的结果，展示得别具一格，自然无限欢喜。和老板之间的关系，因为很久前被骂，还有上学期TA的事情，似乎多少有一些“阴雨天”的感觉。最近学期结束，开始专注科研了，这才算感觉比较良好了，继续努力…… 昨天，最近在费米实验室实习的高中同学阿平过来了，周围四处走走逛逛。天公也很配合，周五还大风大雨的，这两天却是天气出奇地好。和阿平聊起来德州那边的样子，才知道自己对美国的印象，也只是停留在自己所在的这个小镇，以及去过的非常有限的一些地方。井底之蛙……噢，还一起看了个小小厘头的电影，叫Hang Over……进去前还怕看不懂，不过，还行，非常好玩。想开心大笑一下的，不妨看看，也不是完全没有意义。再贴几个照片吧，手机拍的，“到此一游”……
很惊讶地发现，再大的地方，也是一直挺快地变化着。为什么自己像块石头一样，一成不变？ 6/16/2009 天黑了，又下雨了 在办公室一个人啃着饼干，看着窗外的雨，等着漫无边际的计算结果……上午头脑很不清楚的时候还在说天气慢慢好起来了，可是傍晚老天爷脸色越来越难看，慢慢就下起了雨……下雨了，总是好的…… ……程序说它放弃了。。。 没有如果
现在的自己，既然已经知道了现在的心境，是否还会在未来的日子里，像过去的几年一般痴迷地做同一件傻事？ 而未来的自己，经历了更长的时间消磨，是否会像自己所期望的那样，慢慢地淡忘最初刻下痕迹的原因？ 是不是类似的事情，就一定要触发类似的记忆？为什么总是要抓狂地看着当年的那个自己，责骂现在的我？ 我是该被动地等待时光的遗忘，还是努力地尝试满世界寻求别的出口？ 天亮了，就好了；久了，就好了；写完了，就好了……什么时候不会想了，就好了：） 6/7/2009 Love Quotes 3
"Why is it that we don't always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?" "The truth of love is the truth of the universe: it is the lamp of the soul that reveals the secrets of darkness". Kabir "There is the same difference in a person before and after he is in love as there is in an unlighted lamp and one that is burning." Vincent Van Gogh "Love not what you are, but what you may become". Miguel de Cervantes "When you depart from me sorrow abides, and happiness takes his leave".William Shakespeare in Much Ado About Nothing, Act i, Sc.1 "Respect is love in plain clothes." 5/26/2009 闰年闰月的知识（ZZ） 说到后天端午，然后就去百度了一堆农历闰月的东西来看，好复杂……另外，你知道还有“闰秒”这玩意儿吗？就算是公历，我们的“世界时间”也是一直被修正的。当你对时的时候，不知不觉中，你的人生就可能多了一秒种，HOHO…… 5/22/2009 春天春天，动动笔一万年没写东西了，成天看着那26个英文字母的各种组合过日……很快就要成文盲了。今天更是用那无敌的和各种组合，写了好几页东西，写得头都晕。不过过会儿老板半夜起床看到我组合的这几页东西，估计就不止头晕了，该头疼了。不管了……我还是换一下口味，写写方块字。说起方块字，刚刚从阿鱼那里得到一个消息，一高中室友已经当爹啦！而且给他的小孩取了个无限方块的名字，叫吕品……据说天天画方块，画到极品了，就中国达芬奇了……不好意思这个名字太有才了，不得不实名制啊！恭喜一下过分有才有财哥，顺便让你家小朋友出出名，HOHO……然后一时引起无数大学高中同学讨论下一代的名字……什么蒋就，蒋金啦，张罗啊，王ooxx……汗最后一个，大师报复我的作品…… 话说最近虽然猪流感盛行，但是身处重灾区的我并没有感觉到周围有什么异常，倒是国内的朋友们经常紧张兮兮地跑来问我情况如何啊，有没有“隔离”啊……最近天气也都慢慢好起来，“四季如冬”的这里也稍稍有点儿像春天了，阳光很好，树很风骚，草艳绿，风温柔。 检讨一下自己最近的作息……周二打网球回到家已经夜里11点多，然后太兴奋，于是开始自己WAR3，然后不幸被阿科拉去虐，再然后飞机上线，见识了他惨不忍睹的技术，才知道他原来和我说这个的时候一直在吹大牛皮……然后就天快亮了。周三是TA最忙碌的倒数第四周……一天没合眼。晚上11点多改完作业，回家看自己做的数学试卷（拿回家做的），看到两个地方不爽，于是奋笔疾书，等到自己满意时，又已经是半夜三点……然后一大早，不知道是不是昨天晚上吃的"stuffed” pizza，据说是芝加哥特色的，感觉胸口一直有一股什么气，翻江倒海，倒是没闹肚子，反而化成各种愁苦，一时无法排遣，无端端各种回忆各种不开心像做梦一样重现，然后泪流满面……起身煮温水喝下，慢慢把肚子里的气化成嗝打了出来，然后才能安心再睡上一两个小时，然后就是整理中午要交的试卷，下午开始就码字母直到觉得恶心……晚餐自己烤了个pizza（最近实在是喜欢pizza，三天两头要吃一下）还有薯条，边吃边打嗑睡……睡醒了改一改恶心的proposal，决定开始码这些方块字。 睡觉，明天一早上完一节TA的课就终于周末了：） |
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